Anyway, juz on Monday, I was being approached by my AVP to ask if I am keen on permanently transferring to one of the Account Services unit called Internet Banking/Service Desk. It is still an operational job under credit ops, but now this job deals with internet banking transactions and requests. Hmmm... at first, I thought it sounded quite interesting to me. But after a brief explanation, it doesn't seems as interesting as I thought. Since I have always been complaining about my job, I have decided to go for it after considering over it for one night. And so I submitted my name to my boss for the transfer on Tuesday morning.
Never did I expect her to come back to me to say that my request has been approved on that very same day and I will be moving on to the new department on next Monday!!! Diaoz... Although I may be keen on the transfer but this is too fast for me to accept it. From that moment, I started to have mixed feelings! Many things started to run through my mind, making me doubt myself whether I am regretting on accepting the transfer now!!
I am starting to feel scared and insecure... scared of loneliness in the new department, and having to adapt to a whole new environment and new colleagues all over again!! I am starting to miss my current colleagues although I have always been complaining about some of them... I am worried about the new boss that I will need to work with!!! Moreover, everything seems to be so unconfirmed and uncertain, except for the info that I will be reporting to the new department on the lower storey on next Monday. I am still unsure about the new job scope, who I am reporting to and whether I will be able to get a good work station location in the new office... I mean I dun wanna be sitting near or opposite my direct supervisor again just like now!! Hehee...
So fast, tomorrow will be the last day that I will be working in my current department... Feels kinda happy yet sad... Happy bcoz I don't need to do the same things that I have been doing for the last 1.5 years after tomorrow, but sad that I will not be able to mix around with my current groups of colleagues already.
Somehow, I have this bad feeling about my transfer. I kinda feel that the job description conveyed to me might not be what I will be doing after I report to the new department... bcoz... before I agreed to take on the new role, my AVP kept saying that the department is called IB which means Internet Banking, but after I have accepted the 'verbal' confirmation on the transfer, the department name used in the email sent out seems to have changed to Service Desk!! Wonder if it is actually a scam to make people want to transfer out so that they can reduce the headcount in my current unit...
Anyway, tomorrow my unit will be holding a farewell lunch for us (Actually still got Vanessa and Su also transferring out - Vanessa will be with me but she will transfer over 1 week later than me and Su is still unconfirmed on the department that she will be going to)... Why is everything happening so fast?????? Now that I feel like staying on instead... but I think it is too late. But if I have a choice to stay on now, then I think I will soon start to complain about my current job again... Hehee... But then again, even before transferring over, I already have doubts about the new job. Sigh... That's me... Forever undecisive and not easily unsatisfied! =P
If I can get to be transferred out successfully, please wish me luck to have a good boss, nice colleagues and to sit at a good work station location! Heehee!