People always wonder what takes me so long to find a job? Is it bcoz I am too choosy?? Or am I just too lousy??
There are times when I feel that others perceive people who are jobless for a long period of time as useless bum / being too choosy / enjoying life / don't want to work on purpose / cannot take hardship... Whatever whatever...
Why am I out of job for so many months?...
Choosy - Yes!! I am choosy, far too choosy!! And maybe like what others think, I deserve it! It's my own fault for putting too many restrictions to the jobs I apply for!
Well, I believe everyone has their own concerns and criterias when it comes to choosing the type of jobs that they want to work in. Some people may have few restrictions, others plenty! I belong to the second group!
Whenever I get job interviews/offers from companies or job recommendations from agencies, I will start considering about the following factors, which most of the time, caused me to reject them... I admit that this is my bad point!! but I cannot help thinking twice about the job especially when there is an unbalanced feeling!!
"The location of the company is too far from my place!"
"The pay is too low."
"I do not want to work retail or shift hours."
"I prefer 5 days to 5 1/2 days work week!"
"I do not want to go back to customer service!"
"I don't like the industry/field coz I have no interest in it!"
"Aiyah, why must wear so formal?"
Find any of the above familiar?? The bad part is that I can even choose to forgo the job even though I may be affected by only 1 of the above factors! At the end of it, it's all bcoz I am afraid that it might still lead to 'What if I don't like the job and wants to quit within a year again?', and I am just trying to avoid that from happening...
I know I am the type who cannot stay long in a job once I don't like it, even if it's for a year. To others, 1 year is the minimum staying period no matter how bad the job is... To me, it's considered very very long - 1 year = 12months = 365days = 8760hours = 525600minutes!!! Not to mention 1 year... 6 months is already long enough!! And I know I cannot do it!! I hate being stucked in a bad and unsatisfying job, yet having to endure working for long term just to earn the credit in my resume!!! This is why I really have to choose something that I will not regret doing in order to let me stay in the job for at least a year or more!
Adding on to that, I have enough short-term employments in my resume due to all the wrong choices made previously... so many until companies think that I am a job-hopper... And in order to put a stop to this, I really need to look into every single factor stated above so as not to feel unsatisfield with my job and then quitting it again!!! And then I would have to start all over again!
Like I said, there are reasons behind every single factor for me to reject the offer... To me, these are reasons which I am very concerned about... but others may find them unimportant...
Being choosy is not just the only reason... there are many other reasons which again, others cannot relate to (maybe some of them can, I don't know)... bcoz they are not me. It's my life - only I know what I want, what has happened to it previously and now I am determined to live the rest of it in my own way, my own liking!!
Interviewers like to ask "Why do you have a sudden change of interest from customer service to whatever position which I have applied for?"
My explanation: I would like to move on to other areas so as to take on new tasks and pick up new skills.
In my mind: Ya, like real! I never like customer service... It just started bcoz customer service was the first job I took up eversince I graduated from poly, thus my subsequent jobs were offered due to my experiences earned based on my first and previous jobs, which were mostly also in customer service. All other fields require job candidates to have at least 2-3 years of relevant working experiences, where the hell am I going to get those job experiences from if I am not even given an opportunity to be hired in the other areas??! Of coz I need to start off somewhere, and this somewhere suay suay happened to be customer service which is the most shitty job on earth!! And I do not want to continue my life working so miserably to take on all these shit!! But how am I suppose to tell the truth to the interviewers?? Such explanations will definitely not be what the interviewers are expecting to hear bcoz they will think that I am someone who cannot take on challenges!
Then their next concern will be "I see that your employments are relatively short in each company..."
My explanation was of coz given according to what I think is appropriate to the interviewer but then again deep down...
In my mind: Yes! I knew I would be asked on this!! I know what the interviewer is thinking - I am a job-hopper right???... How do expect me to stay long in my job when I don't even like it in the first place but always get back to it only bcoz that's the only type of job which was offered to me at the salary which meets my expectations?? Then again, companies are not willing to hire someone without experience in the other areas that I like, where else can I go then?? Of coz go back to where I have the experience and could get a higher salary lah!!! Even if they do hire fresh grads, I am always not the lucky one to be selected... and what can I do?? Take a knife and threaten the employer???
I have a strong determination to work in the fashion or music and entertainment industry... But I do not have the relevant contacts/network, education and experiences in these areas! In fact, I have tried applying for positions in these areas, went for the job interviews with hopes but left the interview room with feedbacks which tell me that I do not possess the right attributes or experiences and education/knowledge in these areas!! Frankly, despite knowing that it will be harder for me to get into these jobs with zero experience, I still continue trying my luck! But whenever I leave the interview room knowing that I do not stand the chance, I feel really depressed and disappointed!! Perhaps, this is why I do not have the spirit in my job search... bcoz my heart already tells me that whichever other job comes along is still not what I want.
I may be naive and unrealistic about pursuing my dream job... But all I can say is that I want to try, have tried and failed but is still determined to try again and get a job in these fields... All other jobs are juz considered plain boring and uninteresting to me! Sometimes I even think that I am just not suitable to work in Singapore, a place where everything is so practical, stressful and unentertaining, a place where people talk business and education so seriously that someone who is unemployed may even be seen as weird, abnormal and unacceptable in the society...
Afterall, it's hard to explain... and I don't know where I am targeting at now... I don't know if I am doing the right thing by keeping firm on my decision and working towards my goal. I feel that my life is now kinda directionless bcoz after attending several interviews which have given me hope initially, but after the interview, the hope was again taken away by the interviewer, I feel like giving up! The job I want does not want me, yet the job I do not want comes looking for me... Why must things happen in the opposite way?? Job-seeking suxs!!! I'm so confused and tired now...
When is an angel-hearted interviewer going to appear to grant me my wish?? I hope the time will come very soon! I'm really sick and tired of attending so many interviews without positive results...
There are times when I feel that others perceive people who are jobless for a long period of time as useless bum / being too choosy / enjoying life / don't want to work on purpose / cannot take hardship... Whatever whatever...
Why am I out of job for so many months?...
Choosy - Yes!! I am choosy, far too choosy!! And maybe like what others think, I deserve it! It's my own fault for putting too many restrictions to the jobs I apply for!
Well, I believe everyone has their own concerns and criterias when it comes to choosing the type of jobs that they want to work in. Some people may have few restrictions, others plenty! I belong to the second group!
Whenever I get job interviews/offers from companies or job recommendations from agencies, I will start considering about the following factors, which most of the time, caused me to reject them... I admit that this is my bad point!! but I cannot help thinking twice about the job especially when there is an unbalanced feeling!!
"The location of the company is too far from my place!"
"The pay is too low."
"I do not want to work retail or shift hours."
"I prefer 5 days to 5 1/2 days work week!"
"I do not want to go back to customer service!"
"I don't like the industry/field coz I have no interest in it!"
"Aiyah, why must wear so formal?"
Find any of the above familiar?? The bad part is that I can even choose to forgo the job even though I may be affected by only 1 of the above factors! At the end of it, it's all bcoz I am afraid that it might still lead to 'What if I don't like the job and wants to quit within a year again?', and I am just trying to avoid that from happening...
I know I am the type who cannot stay long in a job once I don't like it, even if it's for a year. To others, 1 year is the minimum staying period no matter how bad the job is... To me, it's considered very very long - 1 year = 12months = 365days = 8760hours = 525600minutes!!! Not to mention 1 year... 6 months is already long enough!! And I know I cannot do it!! I hate being stucked in a bad and unsatisfying job, yet having to endure working for long term just to earn the credit in my resume!!! This is why I really have to choose something that I will not regret doing in order to let me stay in the job for at least a year or more!
Adding on to that, I have enough short-term employments in my resume due to all the wrong choices made previously... so many until companies think that I am a job-hopper... And in order to put a stop to this, I really need to look into every single factor stated above so as not to feel unsatisfield with my job and then quitting it again!!! And then I would have to start all over again!
Like I said, there are reasons behind every single factor for me to reject the offer... To me, these are reasons which I am very concerned about... but others may find them unimportant...
Being choosy is not just the only reason... there are many other reasons which again, others cannot relate to (maybe some of them can, I don't know)... bcoz they are not me. It's my life - only I know what I want, what has happened to it previously and now I am determined to live the rest of it in my own way, my own liking!!
Interviewers like to ask "Why do you have a sudden change of interest from customer service to whatever position which I have applied for?"
My explanation: I would like to move on to other areas so as to take on new tasks and pick up new skills.
In my mind: Ya, like real! I never like customer service... It just started bcoz customer service was the first job I took up eversince I graduated from poly, thus my subsequent jobs were offered due to my experiences earned based on my first and previous jobs, which were mostly also in customer service. All other fields require job candidates to have at least 2-3 years of relevant working experiences, where the hell am I going to get those job experiences from if I am not even given an opportunity to be hired in the other areas??! Of coz I need to start off somewhere, and this somewhere suay suay happened to be customer service which is the most shitty job on earth!! And I do not want to continue my life working so miserably to take on all these shit!! But how am I suppose to tell the truth to the interviewers?? Such explanations will definitely not be what the interviewers are expecting to hear bcoz they will think that I am someone who cannot take on challenges!
Then their next concern will be "I see that your employments are relatively short in each company..."
My explanation was of coz given according to what I think is appropriate to the interviewer but then again deep down...
In my mind: Yes! I knew I would be asked on this!! I know what the interviewer is thinking - I am a job-hopper right???... How do expect me to stay long in my job when I don't even like it in the first place but always get back to it only bcoz that's the only type of job which was offered to me at the salary which meets my expectations?? Then again, companies are not willing to hire someone without experience in the other areas that I like, where else can I go then?? Of coz go back to where I have the experience and could get a higher salary lah!!! Even if they do hire fresh grads, I am always not the lucky one to be selected... and what can I do?? Take a knife and threaten the employer???
I have a strong determination to work in the fashion or music and entertainment industry... But I do not have the relevant contacts/network, education and experiences in these areas! In fact, I have tried applying for positions in these areas, went for the job interviews with hopes but left the interview room with feedbacks which tell me that I do not possess the right attributes or experiences and education/knowledge in these areas!! Frankly, despite knowing that it will be harder for me to get into these jobs with zero experience, I still continue trying my luck! But whenever I leave the interview room knowing that I do not stand the chance, I feel really depressed and disappointed!! Perhaps, this is why I do not have the spirit in my job search... bcoz my heart already tells me that whichever other job comes along is still not what I want.
I may be naive and unrealistic about pursuing my dream job... But all I can say is that I want to try, have tried and failed but is still determined to try again and get a job in these fields... All other jobs are juz considered plain boring and uninteresting to me! Sometimes I even think that I am just not suitable to work in Singapore, a place where everything is so practical, stressful and unentertaining, a place where people talk business and education so seriously that someone who is unemployed may even be seen as weird, abnormal and unacceptable in the society...
Afterall, it's hard to explain... and I don't know where I am targeting at now... I don't know if I am doing the right thing by keeping firm on my decision and working towards my goal. I feel that my life is now kinda directionless bcoz after attending several interviews which have given me hope initially, but after the interview, the hope was again taken away by the interviewer, I feel like giving up! The job I want does not want me, yet the job I do not want comes looking for me... Why must things happen in the opposite way?? Job-seeking suxs!!! I'm so confused and tired now...
When is an angel-hearted interviewer going to appear to grant me my wish?? I hope the time will come very soon! I'm really sick and tired of attending so many interviews without positive results...
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