Merry Christmas! Merry But Also Not Very Merry...

Thanks to everyone for their Christmas wishes and presents!! Hope that everyone has enjoyed this joyous season. Christmas has not ended though... coz there's 12 days of Christmas! I am looking forward to the gathering at Deardear's place on this Saturday!

Here I wanna say thanks to Vanessa, Monica, Denise, Vivian, Joanne and Alvin for buying Hello Kitty and princess stuffs for me (bcoz I definitely prefer them to candies and chocolates)!! And of coz thanks to my Deardear for buying me the LV bag which I have always wished for!

But first I would like to apologize to Dear for making a fuss about him buying the wrong colour of the bag for me. I really shouldn't have told him all those things earlier.

When I opened his present last night, I felt disappointed after seeing the wrong colour bcoz it was never what I have expected. After that I tried convincing myself to accept and like it bcoz it's such an expensive gift from my loved one but time and time again, I just feel that the black base seems so unattractive and dull to me and it's not what I wanted. In fact, I cried over the issue and kicked up a fuss out of it... just bcoz I am not satisfied with what I get and was wondering why did he buy a different colour when I have always been telling him that I like the white one. I knew the things I have said to Deardear was so straight that I have hurt him but I just wanted to let him know how I felt... bcoz I was afraid that I will not use the bag and afraid to hear negative comments about it when I use it. I cried myself to sleep last night and this afternoon but later on I took some time to think it through again.

After waking up this afternoon, I decided to open up the presents given by my colleagues. I realized the difference in the presents bought by them and Deardear. Majority of the presents received from my colleagues are simply things that are just given for the sick of giving, be it I like it or not. Unlike Deardear, he have always given me the things I like and wanted, just that this time he made a wrong move. In fact, I should have appreciate him for putting in the effort to ask Peter's sis to buy the present for him from Paris 3 weeks ago but instead I kept wondering why he must ask someone to buy the bag from Paris just to get it at a lower price and thus causing the situation whereby I cannot go to the LV boutique in Singapore to do an exchange since he did not get the receipt from Peter's sis...

I regretted what I said to Deardear bcoz I wronged him. I realize that no matter how much I do not like the colour of the bag, it is still something that Deardear bought bcoz he knows that I wanted it and bcoz he dotes me! I realized that I have wronged him for buying the wrong colour coz at first I kept thinking that he acted smart to buy the black one bcoz he told me that the black one is more practical, but later realized that he made the decision to buy the black one bcoz the white one was out of stock.

I am sorry Deardear. Sorry that I made you feel bad for buying the wrong colour and also making you to loss sleep last night. I know it is supposed to be Christmas, should be happy but I made it so unhappy and unjoyful for you.

After all these fuss, when I was taking pictures of my presents juz now, I realized that the bag doesn't look that bad afterall. I think even if Deardear manages to get the receipt from Peter's sis, I might not change it now though I still like the white one. =P

I have this question which I have been pondering on: During Christmas, do you buy the presents based on what the receiver will like, buy based on your own liking of the present or anyhow buy for the sick of buying???

For me, I will buy things based on what I think that person will like bcoz I will hope that the person will be happy to see the present I bought for them. But for many of my colleagues, I realized that they buy things based on their own likings and mostly, they just anyhow buy... especially those who give chocolates and candies! For those who gives chocolates and candies, I think they are so lazy... coz no effort put in. This afternoon, my mum was telling me that she realized most Christians will just give chocolates as a gift of sharing for Christmas, only people like me waste money to buy expensive gifts for others. How true I don't know but this is based on what my mum observed from her colleagues.

As from what Vanessa and I have observed from our colleagues, both of us came to a conclusion that the people from my office are kinda stingy... bcoz what we bought for them are at least 5 times the price of what we received from them. The people from our previous company were more willing to spend. Either it's bcoz of the recession/fear of retrenchment so people are less willing to spend (but I doubt so bcoz last year was also the same) or bcoz of the banking culture - people loves to calculate (jin jin ji jiao), if not they are just plain stingy! Anyway, I was already prepared for the losses when I was shopping for their presents last week. At least I am proud to say that I am not stingy in giving and I feel good to see that they like my presents after opening. Vanessa told me that she regretted spending so much for their presents, I told her that I felt the same way... but I told her to treat it as if she has done charity! Hahaa!! =P

Anyway, Christmas Eve has always been boring for me almost every year, same goes for this year... I think New Year's Eve will be boring again as well...

*If only someone is willing to jio me out on these 2 eves every year to have some fun, life will be much more happening for me...*